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bloodsong1) wrote2004-07-08 02:53 pm
bloodsong1) wrote2004-07-08 02:53 pm
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Self analysis
Not fun, never pretty, better to do it here then talking out loud and making my coworkers look at me funny.
Ok, so it's easier to write then talk when you're answering phones. You don't lose your train of thought this way.
Whilst meditating on my lunch break, I had a surprising realization. I felt out of alignment, something wasn't up to specs. Following this thought was practical wondering on how to "fix" me. Time for myself seemed the first step, which would take away from dealing for Wolf tonight. Sadness. Want to help him. Wait, we already agreed I get at least one night a week for me. I can take that whenever I wish. Very good. Tonight it will be. Now, what to DO for me. Pampering? Well, I need to shave. But that's not pampering, that's a chore. Don't have any fun pampering stuff. Hmmm. Chat with my friends online? The whining is bound to spill over. Ugh, I don't need whining. Had enough of that from the kiddo. Could simply refuse to talk about it. There's an idea. Frustration. Ok, this Keep situation is getting to me. Rats. Wanted to avoid that, managed to stick my nose in it anyway. Serves me right, I suppose.
Wait, wait. Hold everything. What's wrong with my left ear? Tilt head. Yep, pain. Lovely. If that's an infection, it's just going to have to wait. No health insurance. Switch the headset! Whoa, this feels weird. But no weirder then when I switched it to the left ear a few months ago. I'll adapt.
So, if I do have some kind of ear infection, that would make me feel off balance and out of sorts. Hot packs over the ear, I guess. I should have an essential good for this. And lay off the caffine, even if I'm still tired. Yes, still tired. Which would not be surprising if I have an infection. Yeesh. At least tomorrow's Friday.
I'm grouchy. Frustrated. Don't want to be sick, want to just go to bed. *sighs* Well, I have no choice. Finish the day, it's only three hours, and Timecard! Fuck. Have to do it tomorrow, it's not in my bag.
*sigh* Doing that a lot today. Heh. *yawn* Dontcha just love trigger words? *blink blink*
Well, alrighty then. I know what's going on physically, emotionally is probably being affected by that, so I do need to re-align myself with some "me" time. Ok. I'll figure that out when I get home.
Ok, so it's easier to write then talk when you're answering phones. You don't lose your train of thought this way.
Whilst meditating on my lunch break, I had a surprising realization. I felt out of alignment, something wasn't up to specs. Following this thought was practical wondering on how to "fix" me. Time for myself seemed the first step, which would take away from dealing for Wolf tonight. Sadness. Want to help him. Wait, we already agreed I get at least one night a week for me. I can take that whenever I wish. Very good. Tonight it will be. Now, what to DO for me. Pampering? Well, I need to shave. But that's not pampering, that's a chore. Don't have any fun pampering stuff. Hmmm. Chat with my friends online? The whining is bound to spill over. Ugh, I don't need whining. Had enough of that from the kiddo. Could simply refuse to talk about it. There's an idea. Frustration. Ok, this Keep situation is getting to me. Rats. Wanted to avoid that, managed to stick my nose in it anyway. Serves me right, I suppose.
Wait, wait. Hold everything. What's wrong with my left ear? Tilt head. Yep, pain. Lovely. If that's an infection, it's just going to have to wait. No health insurance. Switch the headset! Whoa, this feels weird. But no weirder then when I switched it to the left ear a few months ago. I'll adapt.
So, if I do have some kind of ear infection, that would make me feel off balance and out of sorts. Hot packs over the ear, I guess. I should have an essential good for this. And lay off the caffine, even if I'm still tired. Yes, still tired. Which would not be surprising if I have an infection. Yeesh. At least tomorrow's Friday.
I'm grouchy. Frustrated. Don't want to be sick, want to just go to bed. *sighs* Well, I have no choice. Finish the day, it's only three hours, and Timecard! Fuck. Have to do it tomorrow, it's not in my bag.
*sigh* Doing that a lot today. Heh. *yawn* Dontcha just love trigger words? *blink blink*
Well, alrighty then. I know what's going on physically, emotionally is probably being affected by that, so I do need to re-align myself with some "me" time. Ok. I'll figure that out when I get home.