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bloodsong1) wrote2005-03-16 06:03 pm
bloodsong1) wrote2005-03-16 06:03 pm
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I'm bored of checklists!
Did 300 today, don't want to do another 200, even if it would catch me up to today.
So, nyah. I'm not going to do them.
Wonder if I can get 45 minutes of work out of typing. Probably, if I worked on First Love or Addiction and Legal Prostitution. Sadly, my muse for both fled in terror when I started going bonkers.
Bonkers, yeah, totally nuts! Bonkers. *hums happily*
Ok, so I didn't really go nuts. Just let myself get overloaded. Once I realized what was going on, I sought help. Free help in the form of a nifty book called Goddesses in Everywoman. A psychologist took 7 Greco-Roman goddess archetypes, grouped them in three categories and demonstrated how the traits and tendencies of the archetypes manifest themselves in women. I highly recommend the book.
The categories were: Virgin (Artemis, Athena, Hestia), Vulnerable (Hera, Demeter, Persephone) and Alchemical (Aphrodite). Artemis represents women's independence, determination and focus on change. Athena represents strategy, cunning and supporting the status quo. Hestia represents spiritual calmness and homemaking (separate from housewife-ing).
Hera represents marriage and housewives, Demeter represents motherhood and caregiving, Persephone represents girlhood and innocence.
Aphrodite represents sensuality and creativity.
As with the myths, all of these positive things are balanced with negative. Artemis can be dismissive and hostile to men, Athena is often cruel and cold, and Hestia can be so wrapped up in herself she loses sight of the outside world. Hera is vindictive and jealous, Demeter overwhelms and smothers, Persephone is unfocused and easily taken advantage of. Aphrodite can string others along and be inconsistent.
Few women show, in my experience, just one archetype. More often, they're an amalgam of various goddesses, either working together or fighting.
I now present, in order from childhood to now, the archetypes of Queenie.
Childhood: Artemis and Persephone. I loved school, often was left alone to play, and usually went along with whatever everyone else was doing, to a point. Having a Demeter mother didn't help.
Teen years: Repeat of childhood, with some Hestia showing up in the need to be alone and away from my bloody family.
College to first marriage: Persephone and Hera teaming up, Artemis still strong. Wanted OUT of my mother's house and took the first opportunity that came around, namely the exhusband. I showed classic Hera tendencies by agreeing with him over my mother and defending him. When my son came along, I followed some Demeter tendencies of mothering, mostly because that was the only way I knew how. However, I wasn't wholly Demeter. Hera/Persephone was overtaking Artemis for dominance.
Separation and divorce: Hera subdued in favor of Artemis. Getting the heck outta Dodge wasn't easy, neither was moving back in with Demeter. I stuck it out and waited for an opportunity to come along, very Persephone. I wanted a hero to come save me, again. He came, but at a price.
Single parenthood: Hera finally completely subdued. Artemis and Persephone coming back to a mutual agreement. I didn't need a man, my hero was gone (for good I thought), and I wasn't happy with what my friends and family wanted me to be. So I found my own way. Hestia starting to come up again. I was reaching a balance.
Wolf returns to second marriage: My hero returned to find not a princess waiting, but a heroine in her own right. This is much better. I'm still working on the Artemis/Persephone/Hestia balance. Persephone surges forward in certain times and places, Artemis in others. Hestia only shows up when I want a ritual done.
2002-Now: I allowed Persephone to "take over" in these last several months for the sake of adult companionship. Stupid. Paying the price and determined not to let it happen again. I know when the big trial (Summit) will be over and I can stick it out until then. Hestia is demanding time and energy. This is tricky. I don't have a single day to just do housework anymore. All I have are hours here and there. Like tonight. I have to do laundry and I want to finish cleaning the kitchen. Once Wolf and son get home, I usually end up spending time with them and neglecting the housework. I have asked Wolf to help me on this, but he's as bad as I am in preferring "down time" activities to cleaning.
I also have been having a strong desire to indulge myself in "girly" things. I want to buy candles for the house, some cute new outfits and maybe some lingerie, and makeup. Ever since I found an Avon catalog at work last week, I'm craving new makeup. Doesn't matter then I wear it next to never. I just want to trash what I have and get all new stuff. Foundation, some eye shadow quads, couple of lipsticks and a blush. I haven't had blush in years. I also want to get some moisturizer to supplement the witch hazel I clean my face with every night.
*checks time* Hey, cool! 33 minutes down, 12 to go!
So yeah. I want make up. And perfume. And new socks, and new underwear and some brightly colored tops and another pair of work shoes and an evening purse and several pairs of stockings and another pair of pants or two wouldn't hurt either.
Then I want about 2 dozen votive candles in various colors and scents for the house. Wall sconces would be good, wrought iron. Some hanging plants, hung high enough to keep the kitties out of them, but not so high I can't water them as needed. And one of those cute long necked watering cans.
*looks back over her list*
Doesn't seem practical, really. There's only so much money and everyone else needs clothes too.
Thrift store! Give me 20 bucks and see how far I can go with it.
Oooooo! A challenge!
*sniffle sniffle*
*sneeze*
*sneeze*
*sneeze*
Note to self. Take allergy meds. The dust from the mail is killing your sinuses. Right. Bleargh.
So, nyah. I'm not going to do them.
Wonder if I can get 45 minutes of work out of typing. Probably, if I worked on First Love or Addiction and Legal Prostitution. Sadly, my muse for both fled in terror when I started going bonkers.
Bonkers, yeah, totally nuts! Bonkers. *hums happily*
Ok, so I didn't really go nuts. Just let myself get overloaded. Once I realized what was going on, I sought help. Free help in the form of a nifty book called Goddesses in Everywoman. A psychologist took 7 Greco-Roman goddess archetypes, grouped them in three categories and demonstrated how the traits and tendencies of the archetypes manifest themselves in women. I highly recommend the book.
The categories were: Virgin (Artemis, Athena, Hestia), Vulnerable (Hera, Demeter, Persephone) and Alchemical (Aphrodite). Artemis represents women's independence, determination and focus on change. Athena represents strategy, cunning and supporting the status quo. Hestia represents spiritual calmness and homemaking (separate from housewife-ing).
Hera represents marriage and housewives, Demeter represents motherhood and caregiving, Persephone represents girlhood and innocence.
Aphrodite represents sensuality and creativity.
As with the myths, all of these positive things are balanced with negative. Artemis can be dismissive and hostile to men, Athena is often cruel and cold, and Hestia can be so wrapped up in herself she loses sight of the outside world. Hera is vindictive and jealous, Demeter overwhelms and smothers, Persephone is unfocused and easily taken advantage of. Aphrodite can string others along and be inconsistent.
Few women show, in my experience, just one archetype. More often, they're an amalgam of various goddesses, either working together or fighting.
I now present, in order from childhood to now, the archetypes of Queenie.
Childhood: Artemis and Persephone. I loved school, often was left alone to play, and usually went along with whatever everyone else was doing, to a point. Having a Demeter mother didn't help.
Teen years: Repeat of childhood, with some Hestia showing up in the need to be alone and away from my bloody family.
College to first marriage: Persephone and Hera teaming up, Artemis still strong. Wanted OUT of my mother's house and took the first opportunity that came around, namely the exhusband. I showed classic Hera tendencies by agreeing with him over my mother and defending him. When my son came along, I followed some Demeter tendencies of mothering, mostly because that was the only way I knew how. However, I wasn't wholly Demeter. Hera/Persephone was overtaking Artemis for dominance.
Separation and divorce: Hera subdued in favor of Artemis. Getting the heck outta Dodge wasn't easy, neither was moving back in with Demeter. I stuck it out and waited for an opportunity to come along, very Persephone. I wanted a hero to come save me, again. He came, but at a price.
Single parenthood: Hera finally completely subdued. Artemis and Persephone coming back to a mutual agreement. I didn't need a man, my hero was gone (for good I thought), and I wasn't happy with what my friends and family wanted me to be. So I found my own way. Hestia starting to come up again. I was reaching a balance.
Wolf returns to second marriage: My hero returned to find not a princess waiting, but a heroine in her own right. This is much better. I'm still working on the Artemis/Persephone/Hestia balance. Persephone surges forward in certain times and places, Artemis in others. Hestia only shows up when I want a ritual done.
2002-Now: I allowed Persephone to "take over" in these last several months for the sake of adult companionship. Stupid. Paying the price and determined not to let it happen again. I know when the big trial (Summit) will be over and I can stick it out until then. Hestia is demanding time and energy. This is tricky. I don't have a single day to just do housework anymore. All I have are hours here and there. Like tonight. I have to do laundry and I want to finish cleaning the kitchen. Once Wolf and son get home, I usually end up spending time with them and neglecting the housework. I have asked Wolf to help me on this, but he's as bad as I am in preferring "down time" activities to cleaning.
I also have been having a strong desire to indulge myself in "girly" things. I want to buy candles for the house, some cute new outfits and maybe some lingerie, and makeup. Ever since I found an Avon catalog at work last week, I'm craving new makeup. Doesn't matter then I wear it next to never. I just want to trash what I have and get all new stuff. Foundation, some eye shadow quads, couple of lipsticks and a blush. I haven't had blush in years. I also want to get some moisturizer to supplement the witch hazel I clean my face with every night.
*checks time* Hey, cool! 33 minutes down, 12 to go!
So yeah. I want make up. And perfume. And new socks, and new underwear and some brightly colored tops and another pair of work shoes and an evening purse and several pairs of stockings and another pair of pants or two wouldn't hurt either.
Then I want about 2 dozen votive candles in various colors and scents for the house. Wall sconces would be good, wrought iron. Some hanging plants, hung high enough to keep the kitties out of them, but not so high I can't water them as needed. And one of those cute long necked watering cans.
*looks back over her list*
Doesn't seem practical, really. There's only so much money and everyone else needs clothes too.
Thrift store! Give me 20 bucks and see how far I can go with it.
Oooooo! A challenge!
*sniffle sniffle*
*sneeze*
*sneeze*
*sneeze*
Note to self. Take allergy meds. The dust from the mail is killing your sinuses. Right. Bleargh.
*waves happily*
*waves back*