Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Yes, Universe, thank you, I get the clue by four. I have to get past my unsurprising, newly acknowledged fear of endings. I need to finish Urban Fantasy now that I know what I'm doing. I need to continue to work on Ah Moneypenny because it's a safe outlet for grieving. I'm back to full time (have to go in tomorrow too), so I need to figure out the counseling appointments versus work schedule. I know SLB wants me to take this clue by four to heart and keep working on making myself Whole so hopefully he can marry me.

I don't want to, you know. Not all of that. But I hear you.