Familial Pain
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bloodsong1Or, why mixing Vicoden and InuYasha fanfiction before bed is a BAD IDEA.
Tonight the role of Rin, the human girl Sesshomaru rescued and adopted for reasons totally unknown, because when does the Lord of the Western Lands explain ANYTHING to us mere mortals, now all grown up and working for Sesshomaru in a weird corporate Japan as personal assistant and nanny to his pup from his first marriage (spouse deceased) will be played by ME!
Gods help me.
I tied my yukata snugly around me, feeling pleased with myself for driving out the intruder with cold logic. The gaijin priest had called himself Dan Akroyd, but I made it clear he was not welcome. Then he had tried to compromise me and the threat of Sesshomaru-sama using him to sharpen his claws, as well as my wry assessment that as a proper Shinto family, his Christian dogma would not be appreciated, quelled his ardor and he left. I padded down the hall and slide open one shoji, checking on the children under my care. Sess-kun, Sesshomaru-sama's son, was curled up between his two best friends, Shippo and Souta. So kind of Kagome-san to allow her brothers this sleepover. Then again, Kagome-san and Inuyasha-sama were courting surriptiously. Perhaps the miko wanted to ingratiate herself with Sesshomaru-sama.
'Petty thoughts, Rin. Kagome-san is above such behavior.' I reprimanded myself and shut the shoji, moving towards my room. A shadow passed along the wall and I froze, senses pricking. Another intruder? Was there some strange phase of the moon I was unaware of?
"Hello, Rin." The dry whisper teased my ears and my shoulders slumped.
"Father. Not tonight. I have three young boys here, they must be allowed to sleep." Damn him! Was he so unafraid of Sesshomaru-sama he would violate his own daughter in his superior's own home?? Did his position in Sesshomaru-sama's company provide him such protection? His hands closed over my shoulders and I closed my eyes. Yes, it did. He had already proven that. My position was tenuous at best, Sesshomaru-sama's personal assistant and nanny to his firstborn son, his wife dead less then a year at the hands of a political enemy. Father had shoved me on Sesshomaru-sama six years ago for a receptionist position, but something about me...intrigued Sesshomaru-sama and he made me his assistant. I have worked very, very hard, doing all I was told, and my father reaped the benefits. When Sess-kun was born, a two months before his mother was killed, I was 'promoted' to nanny and moved into their house. The relief of getting away from my father had been great and I had dared to hope I was safe. Now the furor of her murder has died down, the enemy eliminated, and Sesshomaru-sama has begun working through his grief.
"I have missed you, Rin."
"I have not missed you. Leave." I said firmly, jerking away. "I will not tolerate this in my master's house!"
"Master? You told the priest Sesshomaru was your mate. Which is it, daughter? Has the youkai bedded you?"
"His wife lays not even ten months upon the sea that gave her life and you ask me if he has mated with ME?" I hissed, furious. "I am his assisant, nursemaid to his first born! I am human! He will never touch me, for it would shame us both! How DARE you insult Sesshomaru-sama so?"
"You did."
"I said what I said to protect his house and his honor!"
"Not for your own?"
"What honor could Sesshomaru-sama have if he came home this night and found his nursemaid raped? Do you not think he would kill the one responsible for violating his home?"
"He would not kill me."
"No, Father. Sesshomaru-sama will be home at any time. I refuse to compromise myself or my position for your sick pleasures. Leave before he finds you here and both our lives are forfeit!" He groped me painfully.
"Soon, sweet Rin." He purred in my ear and ran away. I clapped my hands over my mouth, stifling the frustrated scream clawing at my throat. Why, oh why did he do this to me? My senses tingled again and I hurried to the front room. Sesshomaru-sama was putting down his suitcase, his shoes already neatly set aside. I rushed forward and bowed deeply.
"Welcome home, sir." I said softly. I reached for his suitcase, but his arm stopped me. I looked up into cool amber eyes.
"What happened, Rin?" He asked, matching tone. I pulled my shoulders back, standing at attention as he prefered.
"Intruders, sir. I drove them off."
"All by yourself?"
"Yes sir. I did have to invoke your name and for that I am very sorry. But there was no violence and the children are sleeping peacefully."
"Are you all right?" His eyes bore into mine in that way that makes other people squirm. It made me feel oddly safe.
"I am unharmed, sir."
"Very good. Get some sleep, Rin. You can unpack tomorrow."
"Yes, sir. Thank you. Good night, sir." I bowed again and walked away, feeling his eyes watching me closely. I prayed he wouldn't connect my father's scent. Foolish man, breaking into the Lord of the Northern Lands home! Does he not know the keen senses Sesshomaru-sama has?
---
The next day, Kagome-san and Inuyasha-sama arrived. Inuyasha-sama volunteered to play with the boys so Kagome-san and I could go shopping. I was a little suspicious of this, but Sesshomaru-sama approved of the outing when I informed him, so we went. I took Kagome-san to my preferred outlet store and began browsing the clearance racks.
"Why do you shop here, Rin-san? You're Sesshomaru's personal assistant. Doesn't he give you money for clothes?"
"Every season, I am required to change my business wardrobe. It's imperative I represent Sesshomaru-sama well. I buy four suits I can mix and match, all necessary accessories and two formal gowns. These are written off as business expenses." I turned a smile on the teenaged girl beside me, holding out two black velvet tops with lace up sides. "However, for myself, I am very frugal, for Sesshomaru-sama does not pay me much. He does not need to, given I reside with him and have few bills to pay. Here. I think this would look very nice on you." I handed her one of the shirts. "And I am sure Inuyasha-sama will enjoy it too." I smirked at her bright blush. She bore no mated marks, but given the looks I have seen exchanged between the two, it is only a matter of time. Sesshomaru-sama has not condoned the match, nor has he approved. He seems to be waiting for something.
Kagome-san and I bought the shirts, then walked back to the office building to meet Inuyasha and Sess-kun.
"Rin-san, can I ask you something?"
"What is it, Kagome-san?"
"Inuyasha said something this morning that bothered me and I wanted to know if it's true. Did your father...do something to you last night?" I froze, almost dropping my bag. Kagome-san ran in front of me, hands clasped. "I'm so sorry! He seemed so upset about it, saying you smelled like your father and it wasn't the first time..." She trailed off as I bowed my head.
"My father...please do not tell anyone of this, Kagome-san. I will lose my position and I need it so very badly."
"I won't. I promise!" Kagome-san dragged me to a nearby bench, tucked under some trees.
"My father, he came to the house last night. He wanted me."
"WHAT!!!" Kagome-san shrieked. I gave her a horrified look and she apologized.
"It was not the first time. Every time before, I submitted, because I was in no position to fight. When Sess-kun was born and I was moved into Sesshomaru-sama's house, I hoped it would be over. But it is not. He will come for me again."
"Tell Sesshomaru! He'll protect you!" I shook my head.
"How would it look, knowing his personal assistant has been raped by her father many times? He would be justified in killing me and he has had enough death in his life. My father is one of his trusted associates. As long as he drives a company car, he is untouchable. Sesshomaru-sama may simply fire me and then I will be at my father's mercy. At least as his nursemaid, I have some protection. I will find a way to keep away from my father, to never associate with him except in public. It is the best I can hope for." I stood, dusting off my skirt. Kagome-san stood and reached out a hand. I turned and accepted her sudden embrace. It was...comforting, even with the tears falling on my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something..."
"I do not have any friends, Kagome-san." I whispered. She lifted her head, wiping her eyes roughly.
"You do now, Rin-chan. I'm your friend, and so is Inuyasha. We'll help keep you safe!"
"Thank you. Now, let's get your face washed. Inuyasha hates it so when you cry." She giggled and we went into the office.
---
I met Inuyasha-sama in Sesshomaru-sama's waiting room. Shippo and Souta went home with Kagome-chan, leaving Sess-kun napping in his carrier. The pup had his paw in his mouth, as was his wont. I smiled and closed the carrier, cradling it gently in my arms.
"Did you have a good time?" Inuyasha-sama asked as we walked to my office.
"Yes. Kagome-chan found a shirt I know you will like." I smirked as his eyes glazed over. Teenage hanyous are so predictable. "Did you have anything planned for tonight?"
"I was thinking we could go for a walk."
"In the woods where you can be alone, surrounded by ancient trees to bear witness?" I asked, shifting Sess-kun in my arms. He looked a little pale. I glanced up to see Inuyasha-sama redder then his favorite shirt.
"How did..."
"Your blood is up. Even I, a mere human, can see it. You must be careful, Inuyasha-sama. Are you really ready for what mating will mean? Humans are governed by different laws, after all. Will Kagome-chan appreciate what she and you must sacrifice to be together like that?" Inuyasha 'keh'ed and studied his claws. I shook my head and looked down at Sess-kun again. He was paler and...was that a bluish tinge? I dropped to my knees, unzipping the carrier. Sess-kun's paw was stuffed so far into his mouth he was suffocating! Inuyasha sniffed and dropped beside me.
"Oh my god! What's wrong!" He cried. I began working a finger into Sess-kun's mouth, trying to break the suction.
"He's suffocating, his fist is blocking his throat." I forced my finger deeper and crooked it, pushing up. With a faint pop, the tiny paw broke free of Sess-kun's mouth. He gasped, coughed and began screaming. I quickly picked up the frightened pup and cuddled him, stroking his back and purring softly. His mother used to do this. Inuyasha-sama's ears flattened against his head. Sesshomaru-sama appeared out of nowhere.
"What happened?" He demanded. Inuyasha-sama jumped to his feet.
"Rin-chan saved Sess-kun's life! He was suffocating on his own paw!" Sesshomaru-sama looked at me, cradling his son against my chest. Sess-kun quieted and nuzzled my neck.
"Thank you, Rin."
"As you wish, sir." I didn't know what else to say.
"Inuyasha, come with me. There is something we must discuss."
"Now?"
"Now. Rin, please take Sess-kun to your office. I will page you when we are done."
"Yes sir." I picked up the carrier in one hand, bowed slightly and walked into my office. Sesshomaru-sama's eyes followed me again.
That was about where I woke up. I can see this going someplace, if I really wanted it to. Question is, should I?
Tonight the role of Rin, the human girl Sesshomaru rescued and adopted for reasons totally unknown, because when does the Lord of the Western Lands explain ANYTHING to us mere mortals, now all grown up and working for Sesshomaru in a weird corporate Japan as personal assistant and nanny to his pup from his first marriage (spouse deceased) will be played by ME!
Gods help me.
I tied my yukata snugly around me, feeling pleased with myself for driving out the intruder with cold logic. The gaijin priest had called himself Dan Akroyd, but I made it clear he was not welcome. Then he had tried to compromise me and the threat of Sesshomaru-sama using him to sharpen his claws, as well as my wry assessment that as a proper Shinto family, his Christian dogma would not be appreciated, quelled his ardor and he left. I padded down the hall and slide open one shoji, checking on the children under my care. Sess-kun, Sesshomaru-sama's son, was curled up between his two best friends, Shippo and Souta. So kind of Kagome-san to allow her brothers this sleepover. Then again, Kagome-san and Inuyasha-sama were courting surriptiously. Perhaps the miko wanted to ingratiate herself with Sesshomaru-sama.
'Petty thoughts, Rin. Kagome-san is above such behavior.' I reprimanded myself and shut the shoji, moving towards my room. A shadow passed along the wall and I froze, senses pricking. Another intruder? Was there some strange phase of the moon I was unaware of?
"Hello, Rin." The dry whisper teased my ears and my shoulders slumped.
"Father. Not tonight. I have three young boys here, they must be allowed to sleep." Damn him! Was he so unafraid of Sesshomaru-sama he would violate his own daughter in his superior's own home?? Did his position in Sesshomaru-sama's company provide him such protection? His hands closed over my shoulders and I closed my eyes. Yes, it did. He had already proven that. My position was tenuous at best, Sesshomaru-sama's personal assistant and nanny to his firstborn son, his wife dead less then a year at the hands of a political enemy. Father had shoved me on Sesshomaru-sama six years ago for a receptionist position, but something about me...intrigued Sesshomaru-sama and he made me his assistant. I have worked very, very hard, doing all I was told, and my father reaped the benefits. When Sess-kun was born, a two months before his mother was killed, I was 'promoted' to nanny and moved into their house. The relief of getting away from my father had been great and I had dared to hope I was safe. Now the furor of her murder has died down, the enemy eliminated, and Sesshomaru-sama has begun working through his grief.
"I have missed you, Rin."
"I have not missed you. Leave." I said firmly, jerking away. "I will not tolerate this in my master's house!"
"Master? You told the priest Sesshomaru was your mate. Which is it, daughter? Has the youkai bedded you?"
"His wife lays not even ten months upon the sea that gave her life and you ask me if he has mated with ME?" I hissed, furious. "I am his assisant, nursemaid to his first born! I am human! He will never touch me, for it would shame us both! How DARE you insult Sesshomaru-sama so?"
"You did."
"I said what I said to protect his house and his honor!"
"Not for your own?"
"What honor could Sesshomaru-sama have if he came home this night and found his nursemaid raped? Do you not think he would kill the one responsible for violating his home?"
"He would not kill me."
"No, Father. Sesshomaru-sama will be home at any time. I refuse to compromise myself or my position for your sick pleasures. Leave before he finds you here and both our lives are forfeit!" He groped me painfully.
"Soon, sweet Rin." He purred in my ear and ran away. I clapped my hands over my mouth, stifling the frustrated scream clawing at my throat. Why, oh why did he do this to me? My senses tingled again and I hurried to the front room. Sesshomaru-sama was putting down his suitcase, his shoes already neatly set aside. I rushed forward and bowed deeply.
"Welcome home, sir." I said softly. I reached for his suitcase, but his arm stopped me. I looked up into cool amber eyes.
"What happened, Rin?" He asked, matching tone. I pulled my shoulders back, standing at attention as he prefered.
"Intruders, sir. I drove them off."
"All by yourself?"
"Yes sir. I did have to invoke your name and for that I am very sorry. But there was no violence and the children are sleeping peacefully."
"Are you all right?" His eyes bore into mine in that way that makes other people squirm. It made me feel oddly safe.
"I am unharmed, sir."
"Very good. Get some sleep, Rin. You can unpack tomorrow."
"Yes, sir. Thank you. Good night, sir." I bowed again and walked away, feeling his eyes watching me closely. I prayed he wouldn't connect my father's scent. Foolish man, breaking into the Lord of the Northern Lands home! Does he not know the keen senses Sesshomaru-sama has?
---
The next day, Kagome-san and Inuyasha-sama arrived. Inuyasha-sama volunteered to play with the boys so Kagome-san and I could go shopping. I was a little suspicious of this, but Sesshomaru-sama approved of the outing when I informed him, so we went. I took Kagome-san to my preferred outlet store and began browsing the clearance racks.
"Why do you shop here, Rin-san? You're Sesshomaru's personal assistant. Doesn't he give you money for clothes?"
"Every season, I am required to change my business wardrobe. It's imperative I represent Sesshomaru-sama well. I buy four suits I can mix and match, all necessary accessories and two formal gowns. These are written off as business expenses." I turned a smile on the teenaged girl beside me, holding out two black velvet tops with lace up sides. "However, for myself, I am very frugal, for Sesshomaru-sama does not pay me much. He does not need to, given I reside with him and have few bills to pay. Here. I think this would look very nice on you." I handed her one of the shirts. "And I am sure Inuyasha-sama will enjoy it too." I smirked at her bright blush. She bore no mated marks, but given the looks I have seen exchanged between the two, it is only a matter of time. Sesshomaru-sama has not condoned the match, nor has he approved. He seems to be waiting for something.
Kagome-san and I bought the shirts, then walked back to the office building to meet Inuyasha and Sess-kun.
"Rin-san, can I ask you something?"
"What is it, Kagome-san?"
"Inuyasha said something this morning that bothered me and I wanted to know if it's true. Did your father...do something to you last night?" I froze, almost dropping my bag. Kagome-san ran in front of me, hands clasped. "I'm so sorry! He seemed so upset about it, saying you smelled like your father and it wasn't the first time..." She trailed off as I bowed my head.
"My father...please do not tell anyone of this, Kagome-san. I will lose my position and I need it so very badly."
"I won't. I promise!" Kagome-san dragged me to a nearby bench, tucked under some trees.
"My father, he came to the house last night. He wanted me."
"WHAT!!!" Kagome-san shrieked. I gave her a horrified look and she apologized.
"It was not the first time. Every time before, I submitted, because I was in no position to fight. When Sess-kun was born and I was moved into Sesshomaru-sama's house, I hoped it would be over. But it is not. He will come for me again."
"Tell Sesshomaru! He'll protect you!" I shook my head.
"How would it look, knowing his personal assistant has been raped by her father many times? He would be justified in killing me and he has had enough death in his life. My father is one of his trusted associates. As long as he drives a company car, he is untouchable. Sesshomaru-sama may simply fire me and then I will be at my father's mercy. At least as his nursemaid, I have some protection. I will find a way to keep away from my father, to never associate with him except in public. It is the best I can hope for." I stood, dusting off my skirt. Kagome-san stood and reached out a hand. I turned and accepted her sudden embrace. It was...comforting, even with the tears falling on my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something..."
"I do not have any friends, Kagome-san." I whispered. She lifted her head, wiping her eyes roughly.
"You do now, Rin-chan. I'm your friend, and so is Inuyasha. We'll help keep you safe!"
"Thank you. Now, let's get your face washed. Inuyasha hates it so when you cry." She giggled and we went into the office.
---
I met Inuyasha-sama in Sesshomaru-sama's waiting room. Shippo and Souta went home with Kagome-chan, leaving Sess-kun napping in his carrier. The pup had his paw in his mouth, as was his wont. I smiled and closed the carrier, cradling it gently in my arms.
"Did you have a good time?" Inuyasha-sama asked as we walked to my office.
"Yes. Kagome-chan found a shirt I know you will like." I smirked as his eyes glazed over. Teenage hanyous are so predictable. "Did you have anything planned for tonight?"
"I was thinking we could go for a walk."
"In the woods where you can be alone, surrounded by ancient trees to bear witness?" I asked, shifting Sess-kun in my arms. He looked a little pale. I glanced up to see Inuyasha-sama redder then his favorite shirt.
"How did..."
"Your blood is up. Even I, a mere human, can see it. You must be careful, Inuyasha-sama. Are you really ready for what mating will mean? Humans are governed by different laws, after all. Will Kagome-chan appreciate what she and you must sacrifice to be together like that?" Inuyasha 'keh'ed and studied his claws. I shook my head and looked down at Sess-kun again. He was paler and...was that a bluish tinge? I dropped to my knees, unzipping the carrier. Sess-kun's paw was stuffed so far into his mouth he was suffocating! Inuyasha sniffed and dropped beside me.
"Oh my god! What's wrong!" He cried. I began working a finger into Sess-kun's mouth, trying to break the suction.
"He's suffocating, his fist is blocking his throat." I forced my finger deeper and crooked it, pushing up. With a faint pop, the tiny paw broke free of Sess-kun's mouth. He gasped, coughed and began screaming. I quickly picked up the frightened pup and cuddled him, stroking his back and purring softly. His mother used to do this. Inuyasha-sama's ears flattened against his head. Sesshomaru-sama appeared out of nowhere.
"What happened?" He demanded. Inuyasha-sama jumped to his feet.
"Rin-chan saved Sess-kun's life! He was suffocating on his own paw!" Sesshomaru-sama looked at me, cradling his son against my chest. Sess-kun quieted and nuzzled my neck.
"Thank you, Rin."
"As you wish, sir." I didn't know what else to say.
"Inuyasha, come with me. There is something we must discuss."
"Now?"
"Now. Rin, please take Sess-kun to your office. I will page you when we are done."
"Yes sir." I picked up the carrier in one hand, bowed slightly and walked into my office. Sesshomaru-sama's eyes followed me again.
That was about where I woke up. I can see this going someplace, if I really wanted it to. Question is, should I?
