T minus 2 days and 13 hours to weekend...
Jun. 16th, 2004 08:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bloodsong1ARGH! Missed Aphie last night. Really wanted to talk to her. Oh well. Wolf comes first and he needed me. He let his wolf out yesterday afternoon, in the privacy and safety of an unoccupied house. Only casualty, a cucumber salad that hadn't worked in the first place. He'll clean it up.
In a way, I envy him. I get that angry at times too, but I don't feel like I DESERVE to let my rage out. Wolf is AFRAID to unless he knows he's alone. As he put it, "My dear, when you display anger, someone is likely to say 'Have a care for your blood pressure'. When I display anger, people call the police. I am not allowed by society to get angry." Sadly true. Wolf's 5'10 and 350, built like a linebacker. Big chest and arms, short, big legs. He frightens people just by looking at them a certain way. 5'2", 95+ me...Yeah, I'm tiny. Who's going to care if a tiny woman starts screaming and throwing things? Maybe if they're in the line of fire. Still, you see my point.
I have seen wolfy Wolf. It did startle me, for about a second. Then I got angry too. Not for the display of anger, that I understood. I was furious because he did it in front of the kiddo and scared him. We slept apart that night. Haven't done it since. *grin*
No, I don't blame him for venting. It's healthy and there's no damage. I dealt 4 shoes of blackjack for him (the source of the frustration was the computer bj simulation) and he regained a little bit of faith in himself. We need another deck of cards so I can deal poker Saturday night too.
In happier news, the kiddo used the potty this morning with absolutely NO prompting on my part! *cheers, throws glitter* He just hopped up and went. I'm so proud!
In a way, I envy him. I get that angry at times too, but I don't feel like I DESERVE to let my rage out. Wolf is AFRAID to unless he knows he's alone. As he put it, "My dear, when you display anger, someone is likely to say 'Have a care for your blood pressure'. When I display anger, people call the police. I am not allowed by society to get angry." Sadly true. Wolf's 5'10 and 350, built like a linebacker. Big chest and arms, short, big legs. He frightens people just by looking at them a certain way. 5'2", 95+ me...Yeah, I'm tiny. Who's going to care if a tiny woman starts screaming and throwing things? Maybe if they're in the line of fire. Still, you see my point.
I have seen wolfy Wolf. It did startle me, for about a second. Then I got angry too. Not for the display of anger, that I understood. I was furious because he did it in front of the kiddo and scared him. We slept apart that night. Haven't done it since. *grin*
No, I don't blame him for venting. It's healthy and there's no damage. I dealt 4 shoes of blackjack for him (the source of the frustration was the computer bj simulation) and he regained a little bit of faith in himself. We need another deck of cards so I can deal poker Saturday night too.
In happier news, the kiddo used the potty this morning with absolutely NO prompting on my part! *cheers, throws glitter* He just hopped up and went. I'm so proud!
