Peaceful easy feeling
Nov. 14th, 2014 05:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bloodsong1Work week done. Next week I finish the training I didn't get to finish due to Cuteness in hospital. I also start helping at a local walk in, whoot!
Dinner ordered. I do love ordering Friday night dinners. We get three-four meals out of them! Totally comparable to buying ingredients and no work for me!
Tonight will be crocheting, watching...something and possibly more grinding on Homestead, then sleeping in as long as I want to.
Saturday will be errands and crocheting.
Sunday will be laundry and crocheting.
I feel good. I watered my Secret Garden last night while in the shower. I was very gentle and only used a little Water. There was still a painful surge. I can now admit I DO miss SLB. I miss him, but I don't want him back. Next time around, if there is a next time around and hopefully it will be after the kiddos are grown, I'll be looking for someone in my actual age bracket who behaves like someone in that actual age bracket. I am done, done, done with boys, even those pretending to be men. I want a MAN. Preferably a strong, silent type that I can lean on when I need to and respect my need to be alone.
SLB has admitted he's getting angry with me. This is good. He needs to go through the stages. I take responsibility for causing him pain. I do NOT take responsibility for how he copes with said pain. If he jumps off a bridge, it's not my fault.
Dinner ordered. I do love ordering Friday night dinners. We get three-four meals out of them! Totally comparable to buying ingredients and no work for me!
Tonight will be crocheting, watching...something and possibly more grinding on Homestead, then sleeping in as long as I want to.
Saturday will be errands and crocheting.
Sunday will be laundry and crocheting.
I feel good. I watered my Secret Garden last night while in the shower. I was very gentle and only used a little Water. There was still a painful surge. I can now admit I DO miss SLB. I miss him, but I don't want him back. Next time around, if there is a next time around and hopefully it will be after the kiddos are grown, I'll be looking for someone in my actual age bracket who behaves like someone in that actual age bracket. I am done, done, done with boys, even those pretending to be men. I want a MAN. Preferably a strong, silent type that I can lean on when I need to and respect my need to be alone.
SLB has admitted he's getting angry with me. This is good. He needs to go through the stages. I take responsibility for causing him pain. I do NOT take responsibility for how he copes with said pain. If he jumps off a bridge, it's not my fault.
