bloodsong1 | Simple Abundance Exercise (Reply)

Scene: Cafe table and chairs. The table is dressed in daffodil yellow cloth with pale pink linen napkins. The silver tea set is out, along with clear plates with watercress, apple and edible flower salads. True Blue, in her pinstripe suit with the jacket over the chair and a short sleeve, cherry red button down shirt is frowning at her yellow book. Sarah walks in, jeans and a gray and black sweater and stares at the table.

Salad?

"You were thinking of becoming more vegetarian, thanks to those Kylie Chan books. You hate iceberg lettuce, aren't keen on any of the other lettuces, so watercress."

That's not a bad idea.

Sarah sits and pours tea. True Blue continues to frown.

Concerned about Indigo?

"I know you won't let her drive again. Gods above and below, that was AWFUL."

Yes, it was.

Sarah tries the salad.

It needs something soft, like berries.

"I'll remember." True Blue looks up and points at the page. "Where on EARTH did you get this idea that you can't be complete without a man?"

Siphoned from my mother, most likely, as well as a lack of strong single female role models. Oh yes, and lots of girl pr0n.

"At least it didn't totally spoil you for sex."

So Say We All.

Sarah grins and eats more salad.

"I think this is your main issue. You do things for yourself, by yourself and you're rightfully proud of them and enjoy them and take pleasure from them and this 20th century ridiculousness pops up and brings you down."

Well, to be fair, I WAS complete with Wolf. Best thing that ever happened to me, right alongside the kiddos.

"I'm not arguing that. He was exactly right and I'm still a little pissed at him for dying."

Sarah shrugs and sips her tea.

That will continue for a while. We've accepted, for the most part, but there will always be a little sadness, a little anger, a little emptiness.

"You're not going to Ascend, you know."

Oh, I know. I'm sooo not worthy, nor have I fallen in love with a god who loves me back. I wonder if I'll be able to read Fire Sword now?

"Pick it up and give it a try. But getting back to this," True Blue flicks the page with her fingernail. "This you'll have to work on with your counselor."

Have YOU gotten past it?

True Blue smiles proudly.

"I am much closer to Ascension then you are, but not close enough. I like my earthly pleasures too much to really focus on the Tao Way. I have made peace with being alone and I am not sad after I do something that pleases me."

Do you have sex?

True Blue chokes on a mouthful of tea.

"Like I said, earthly pleasures."

By yourself?

"If I wish a partner, I know where to find him."

Oh gods, please tell me it's not Ex SLB.

True Blue wipes her mouth and grins.

"You have to find him for yourself. But remember, you don't NEED him. You are a complete, balanced, wonderful person all by yourself."

Working on it.

"And that's why we're still having these conversations."