The Return of the Sun
Jan. 20th, 2005 05:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bloodsong1My heart expands with joy. I am filled with hope and happiness. The Sun has returned.
I wait for my carpool in the mornings bathed in the rays of the just-risen Sun. Every morning I perform a little ritual I conceived...wow, four years ago. It's a simple prayer, followed by an offering of whatever beverage I happen to have in my travel mug poured onto the rocks. Lately it's been Tang, but I have used coffee, tea and water. My ritual lightens my step and brightens my day.
Now, when I get off work, the sun has just set. Afterglow still kisses the sky, all the way home, and the three-quarters full moon glows brightly in the sky above me. I feel the Earth stirring inside and around me. Winter is losing its grip and Spring is peeking through the dead grass of last year's various lawns.
It's amazing how much better I feel about life in general, just in this past week and all because I'm not leaving for work and coming home in the dark. It's not as cold and I can watch the clouds dance.
Today is my son's birthday. I was thinking about that this morning while waiting for my ride. My memory of that time is distorted by the various drugs I was on, but certain things stand out in my mind. The vision while on a mix of oxygen and narcotics, the pain, letting the words "Get this baby out of me" slip out despite my best efforts, the uncomfortable crik in my neck because two well-meaning grandmothers decided supporting my head meant JUST my head and not my neck and shoulders as well, the stitches and the final poking from the nurse after the delivery. Owie.
So now my little guy is 5. *screams* 5!! I can't believe it!
Well, gotta go get my kiddo some cake and ice cream for tonight. Happy birthday, it's my guy's birthday. Happy, happy birthday to him!
*runs off muttering about chocolate Percy*
I wait for my carpool in the mornings bathed in the rays of the just-risen Sun. Every morning I perform a little ritual I conceived...wow, four years ago. It's a simple prayer, followed by an offering of whatever beverage I happen to have in my travel mug poured onto the rocks. Lately it's been Tang, but I have used coffee, tea and water. My ritual lightens my step and brightens my day.
Now, when I get off work, the sun has just set. Afterglow still kisses the sky, all the way home, and the three-quarters full moon glows brightly in the sky above me. I feel the Earth stirring inside and around me. Winter is losing its grip and Spring is peeking through the dead grass of last year's various lawns.
It's amazing how much better I feel about life in general, just in this past week and all because I'm not leaving for work and coming home in the dark. It's not as cold and I can watch the clouds dance.
Today is my son's birthday. I was thinking about that this morning while waiting for my ride. My memory of that time is distorted by the various drugs I was on, but certain things stand out in my mind. The vision while on a mix of oxygen and narcotics, the pain, letting the words "Get this baby out of me" slip out despite my best efforts, the uncomfortable crik in my neck because two well-meaning grandmothers decided supporting my head meant JUST my head and not my neck and shoulders as well, the stitches and the final poking from the nurse after the delivery. Owie.
So now my little guy is 5. *screams* 5!! I can't believe it!
Well, gotta go get my kiddo some cake and ice cream for tonight. Happy birthday, it's my guy's birthday. Happy, happy birthday to him!
*runs off muttering about chocolate Percy*
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Date: 2005-01-21 07:48 am (UTC)you know that Mother's Curse that goes "May your children be as bad as you were"? Well, it works. ;P
kinda makes me glad I'm gay..
Heh.
Date: 2005-01-22 01:02 am (UTC)Yeah, I know about the Mother's Curse. Fortunately, _I_ wasn't bad. Not until college, anyway. So I'm not worried.
You know...
Date: 2005-01-23 01:19 pm (UTC)Happy birthday to the munchkin. :P