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Ain't it funny...
Aug. 4th, 2007 11:23 pmHow things turn out.
Wolf is considering a house that's in the final stages of remodeling. We don't think we can get it, but Wolf has to know how much it really is before putting it out of his mind. It's how he works. The conversation this evening gradually turned to Barb, who does have experience living in a house-in-progress.
We've had many conversations about Barb. I was thrilled to finally meet her three years ago, yet there was a moment when I almost broke down. I was in the kitchen making coffee, as Barb was having a bad morning. She came in to get her cup and Wolf came up behind her, hugging her from the back. He's often done the same to me, and the picture they made struck me powerfully. "Now I know how it looks." I thought to myself. "And it is beautiful."
I know their history. I know about when they passed an important test. Being reminded of this makes me appreciate Beltane that much more. There was a reason Barb asked Wolf to HP. She trusts him, which is necessary when dealing with such rogues as Pan and Aphrodite. Those two are bloody dangerous in group settings, as I learned from personal experience. Don't invite Pan to dance with you in clubs, you never know who you're going to get!
I wasn't jealous when they kissed, but at the same time, I was glad I wasn't in the Circle.
I guess, sometimes, I wonder why Wolf chose me. I know he never would have hooked up with Barb in any serious way, yet, sometimes, I'm reminded of their relationship and feel like I'm encroaching. Would I have the strength to say "Go have fun" with a smile on my lips and a clear heart?
Meh. It's probably the fatigue talking.
Then why are you crying?
Wolf is considering a house that's in the final stages of remodeling. We don't think we can get it, but Wolf has to know how much it really is before putting it out of his mind. It's how he works. The conversation this evening gradually turned to Barb, who does have experience living in a house-in-progress.
We've had many conversations about Barb. I was thrilled to finally meet her three years ago, yet there was a moment when I almost broke down. I was in the kitchen making coffee, as Barb was having a bad morning. She came in to get her cup and Wolf came up behind her, hugging her from the back. He's often done the same to me, and the picture they made struck me powerfully. "Now I know how it looks." I thought to myself. "And it is beautiful."
I know their history. I know about when they passed an important test. Being reminded of this makes me appreciate Beltane that much more. There was a reason Barb asked Wolf to HP. She trusts him, which is necessary when dealing with such rogues as Pan and Aphrodite. Those two are bloody dangerous in group settings, as I learned from personal experience. Don't invite Pan to dance with you in clubs, you never know who you're going to get!
I wasn't jealous when they kissed, but at the same time, I was glad I wasn't in the Circle.
I guess, sometimes, I wonder why Wolf chose me. I know he never would have hooked up with Barb in any serious way, yet, sometimes, I'm reminded of their relationship and feel like I'm encroaching. Would I have the strength to say "Go have fun" with a smile on my lips and a clear heart?
Meh. It's probably the fatigue talking.
Then why are you crying?
