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bloodsong1I had to go digging for Wolf's SSN today due to getting a new debit card. He is still the primary on my account, as the bank would not simply remove his name. I knew the easiest place to find it would be the hospital records I received, which would save me from digging up his death certificate.
Sadly, it took scrolling through almost all of the records to find it, which meant I was reading the ER reports on his last two days.
I'm not really surprised that it still hurts. I was reminded of how many people insist I sue the hospital for malpractice, despite my insistence I didn't have a case. Doctors are only human. Mistakes happen. People die. It's just the way it is. Wolf's blood pressure was so high that giving him clot busting drugs was medically unfeasible. It took the ICU staff a good four hours to stabilize his BP and he passed away within minutes of that event.
I warned SNB that I was going to cry during Sildar's & Ducky's wedding. When he protested that I could stop myself, I cut him off, saying he needed to listen to me.
"I have not healed," I explained and added the quote in the subject line. "I just need you to be patient." He sighed and agreed.
A few minutes later, I hugged him and told him that I WAS healing, thanks to him, and if I hadn't met him, it was very unlikely I would have had the strength to go to the wedding, especially after what happened at Megfaun's. Then I had Chezzie & Polar Bear & Pageofswords to lean on. I wouldn't have ANYONE to lean on in Maryland without SNB.
"I just want to be happy and I want you to be happy with me," SNB said, hugging me back.
"I am happy with you," I assured him.
I AM happy with him. Those friends that have met him agree and are glad for my good fortune. He asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I admitted I wanted another spa day like I had two years ago. He agreed. Now, that was a few hundred dollars, but he says he has an aunt that works at the spa in question so he can get a discount. I had intended to use the tax return to indulge myself and informed him a snuggly robe and another Harvest Moon game for the Wii would be just as good.
No, he's insisting on the spa day.
I'm going to have to get him some Tom's truffles for Valentine's Day.
Sadly, it took scrolling through almost all of the records to find it, which meant I was reading the ER reports on his last two days.
I'm not really surprised that it still hurts. I was reminded of how many people insist I sue the hospital for malpractice, despite my insistence I didn't have a case. Doctors are only human. Mistakes happen. People die. It's just the way it is. Wolf's blood pressure was so high that giving him clot busting drugs was medically unfeasible. It took the ICU staff a good four hours to stabilize his BP and he passed away within minutes of that event.
I warned SNB that I was going to cry during Sildar's & Ducky's wedding. When he protested that I could stop myself, I cut him off, saying he needed to listen to me.
"I have not healed," I explained and added the quote in the subject line. "I just need you to be patient." He sighed and agreed.
A few minutes later, I hugged him and told him that I WAS healing, thanks to him, and if I hadn't met him, it was very unlikely I would have had the strength to go to the wedding, especially after what happened at Megfaun's. Then I had Chezzie & Polar Bear & Pageofswords to lean on. I wouldn't have ANYONE to lean on in Maryland without SNB.
"I just want to be happy and I want you to be happy with me," SNB said, hugging me back.
"I am happy with you," I assured him.
I AM happy with him. Those friends that have met him agree and are glad for my good fortune. He asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I admitted I wanted another spa day like I had two years ago. He agreed. Now, that was a few hundred dollars, but he says he has an aunt that works at the spa in question so he can get a discount. I had intended to use the tax return to indulge myself and informed him a snuggly robe and another Harvest Moon game for the Wii would be just as good.
No, he's insisting on the spa day.
I'm going to have to get him some Tom's truffles for Valentine's Day.
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