Is there such a thing as functional depressant?

[bloodsong1]

That's right about where I feel I am. Functioning while in Indigo. There are Things To Be Done, so I do them, even while wondering why I bother. It doesn't matter. Not really.

Am I sounding like Hyperbole and a Half yet?

I'm tired. I'm Indigo. I'm angry. I have a party to go to tomorrow. We're going to the lake house Saturday for the weekend. I will have company next weekend.

These are good things. So why do I feel so ambivalent?

Oh, right. Depression.

IDK has his counselor appointment today. I should probably ask if they can fit me in too, now that I have health insurance again.

I'm hungry. I guess I should eat something. Then I can go upstairs and read "Lone Wolf and Cub" while IDK does...whatever.

On a completely different note, Izzy the kitty has been spotted several times. She went from the ritual room to the pots and pans cupboard to under the big green comfy couch, to Cuteness' bed and back down. She's used her litter box and eaten a treat or two. SNB is persistent. I will continue to leave her alone and sneeze and have itchy eyes. I'll adjust eventually. It's what I do. Adjust, adapt, persevere.

Why isn't that enough?

Comments

[kenshardik]

I tend to trudge through days and, many evenings, sit around and wonder why I should bother reading or watching TV or playing games because nothing matters.

Some evenings are better than others. Honestly, the ONLY thing that keeps me going is the October Gathering where I will see people I only get to see once a year.

I really think I need an April Gathering so I can at least see some folks twice a year.

[bloodsong1.livejournal.com]

I would host an April Gathering. It could only be for two days/one night and I'm limited to about four-five people and food donations would be required.

Would you be willing to work with that?