bloodsong1 | Wasn't I through with you, Indigo?

No, actually. You're not going to be "through" with me. I'm not something you get "through". I endure as you endure. I take breaks now and then, because everyone needs breaks, but I'll be back as long as you're alive.

"Then why bother being alive?"

Silly. You know the answer to that.

"I don't WANT to do this anymore! I don't want to be alive!"

Tough. You have two kids and a Shiny Live-in Boyfriend. SLB, if you prefer. You're going to stay alive for them. We both know this. You're too much of a coward to take your own life.

"Isn't suicide itself cowardly?"

Knock it off. YOU don't believe that. You think suicide, depending on time and place, can be quite honorable. There doesn't even have to be anyone else around to notice. Remember?

"I still don't want to do this. I don't want to deal with you. I don't want to endure you. I want you to go away and never come back."

Oh, Sweetie. *patpatpat* You're so cute. Not going to happen.

"Then go take a break. Take a long break. Take about a thirty year break."

Afraid not. You still have processing to do. You're starting to panic when you think of Sparkly Elephant. Your son went through a traumatic experience yesterday.

"Stupid 'My Immortal' song."

You need the purge. You also should really look into a counselor again. I'm not going away and you're starting to drop to the really dark levels.

"Why does SLB even love me?"

You'll have to ask him that.

*sigh* "I should go eat something."

Yes, you should. Starving yourself is a really dumb way to go. Takes too long and it's very painful.

"I thought you wanted me to live."

I'm your Depression, honey. I don't CARE if we live or die, I simply know how you are and right now there's a pretty big struggle going on in that head. Practical Rational is very unhappy you threw her into that closet covered in chains again.

"I like to hurt."

So do I. But SLB will freak out if you start cutting and insist on counseling. Might as well get ahead of the game.

"How long are you going to stick around?"

Longer then you want.

"Bitch."

Yep.