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bloodsong1It was agreed that we will work on the communication issues. I have informed him that I have faith in us, but if the methods we've decided on do not work, I will need time alone.
A few days ago I dreamed I was hunting for an old story of mine through myriad websites and film clips and a large convention. I had it narrowed down to an old laptop hard drive that had been retrofitted with a touch screen. As I banged on the touchscreen trying to access a teeny tiny hyperlink, my Maternal Unit appeared and asked why I was bothering with all of this work when it wouldn't solve anything.
"It's my story and I want it back!" I snapped.
I have since realized the dream is also where I am in this relationship. I want my life back. But I don't want my life without SLB back. I want a return to the months where we were having fun and enjoying each other's company without the arguments on semantics and "objective" versus "subjective". I'm willing to work to get there, as long as he is willing to work with me.
We shall see.
A few days ago I dreamed I was hunting for an old story of mine through myriad websites and film clips and a large convention. I had it narrowed down to an old laptop hard drive that had been retrofitted with a touch screen. As I banged on the touchscreen trying to access a teeny tiny hyperlink, my Maternal Unit appeared and asked why I was bothering with all of this work when it wouldn't solve anything.
"It's my story and I want it back!" I snapped.
I have since realized the dream is also where I am in this relationship. I want my life back. But I don't want my life without SLB back. I want a return to the months where we were having fun and enjoying each other's company without the arguments on semantics and "objective" versus "subjective". I'm willing to work to get there, as long as he is willing to work with me.
We shall see.
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Date: 2014-05-19 01:42 pm (UTC)