The Garden Peon
Jul. 19th, 2014 07:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bloodsong1once again has stinging, sore hands and dirt all over her. whee.
has dug out the smallest of the three back yard flower beds.
has burned a lot of yard waste in her snifty chiminea.
actually got IDK to do some manual labor!
has cleared around the compost bin. We can reach the compost bin! We can USE the compost bin! Yay!
has a cleaner deck! (Sweeping really needs to be done, it will be done tomorrow.)
is determined to get her stamina up.
So!
Today was about...3-4 hours shoveling, lugging, breaking, burning and shoving various organic matter around. The huge mess of grass and wood is now a smaller mess of grass and wood moved completely behind the garage and spread out more neatly in a possibly silly attempt to make the composting actually compost. I found about a dozen fat, happy worms who were NOT happy about being dug up. I also yanked out three large burdock plants that will have to be bagged for garbage. Huzzah for burdock instead of giant hogweed! I'm still digging tiny black thorns out of my fingers from whatever thorny plant was back there dead and burnable. Hurts.
I'm also doing yoga, crunches and unweighted leg lifts 2-3 times a week. This is all prep work for when it comes time to start pounding tires. My asthma is an issue, if I can get my core and my arm strength up, as well as my overall stamina, then that kind of grunt work should be a little bit easier.
I realize I've pissed people off. I'm sorry for that. I know you all think I'm shutting you out and running off half cocked and then someone's going to have to rescue me and it won't be you, but gods help the ones who do.
Here's the thing.
***I'M NOT ASKING ANYONE FOR MONEY. I DON'T EXPECT A LOT OF HELP. I AM MAKING A PLAN. I AM RESEARCHING. THIS IS ALL I'M DOING AT THIS POINT!***
I know I can't move on anything until next year at the EARLIEST. Right now I'm looking, I'm reading, I'm learning and I'm gathering information. I intend to have a budget worked out before I do anything else. I'm well aware I need a dump truck of money. I want to know how big the dump truck has to be first. I'm also looking at my current budget and trimming where I can so I can save. It hurts and frustrates ME to be told "You're making a mistake! You don't know what you're doing!" when I'm not in a position to START. That's my problem. I am responsible for my emotions. I am NOT responsible for YOUR emotions. If you have so little faith in me based on what I write in my LJ, then, well, okay. You have little faith in me. I can accept that. You're not seeing the whole picture. You're not seeing what I'm doing RL. You're also not listening when I said wait until after August 3, but that's okay. I'm used to not being listened to. I have a teenager. (^_^)
I will continue to research and ask and study and look up information and put together a plan. This information will still be under locked posts. When my final plan is together, I will put it out to be shredded by my friends, whom I still love and respect and realize they're looking out for me. Until then, please respect my wishes regarding this LJ. Emails will be responded to AFTER the wedding.
Seriously. Please do NOT comment about the earthship plans, what I'm doing or how asinine you think I am for not listening. I am listening. I have read what was written. I agree this is a big project and it's going to take time and effort and money. Let me work on this my way. You'll have your chance to tear it all apart soon enough. I promise.
has dug out the smallest of the three back yard flower beds.
has burned a lot of yard waste in her snifty chiminea.
actually got IDK to do some manual labor!
has cleared around the compost bin. We can reach the compost bin! We can USE the compost bin! Yay!
has a cleaner deck! (Sweeping really needs to be done, it will be done tomorrow.)
is determined to get her stamina up.
So!
Today was about...3-4 hours shoveling, lugging, breaking, burning and shoving various organic matter around. The huge mess of grass and wood is now a smaller mess of grass and wood moved completely behind the garage and spread out more neatly in a possibly silly attempt to make the composting actually compost. I found about a dozen fat, happy worms who were NOT happy about being dug up. I also yanked out three large burdock plants that will have to be bagged for garbage. Huzzah for burdock instead of giant hogweed! I'm still digging tiny black thorns out of my fingers from whatever thorny plant was back there dead and burnable. Hurts.
I'm also doing yoga, crunches and unweighted leg lifts 2-3 times a week. This is all prep work for when it comes time to start pounding tires. My asthma is an issue, if I can get my core and my arm strength up, as well as my overall stamina, then that kind of grunt work should be a little bit easier.
I realize I've pissed people off. I'm sorry for that. I know you all think I'm shutting you out and running off half cocked and then someone's going to have to rescue me and it won't be you, but gods help the ones who do.
Here's the thing.
***I'M NOT ASKING ANYONE FOR MONEY. I DON'T EXPECT A LOT OF HELP. I AM MAKING A PLAN. I AM RESEARCHING. THIS IS ALL I'M DOING AT THIS POINT!***
I know I can't move on anything until next year at the EARLIEST. Right now I'm looking, I'm reading, I'm learning and I'm gathering information. I intend to have a budget worked out before I do anything else. I'm well aware I need a dump truck of money. I want to know how big the dump truck has to be first. I'm also looking at my current budget and trimming where I can so I can save. It hurts and frustrates ME to be told "You're making a mistake! You don't know what you're doing!" when I'm not in a position to START. That's my problem. I am responsible for my emotions. I am NOT responsible for YOUR emotions. If you have so little faith in me based on what I write in my LJ, then, well, okay. You have little faith in me. I can accept that. You're not seeing the whole picture. You're not seeing what I'm doing RL. You're also not listening when I said wait until after August 3, but that's okay. I'm used to not being listened to. I have a teenager. (^_^)
I will continue to research and ask and study and look up information and put together a plan. This information will still be under locked posts. When my final plan is together, I will put it out to be shredded by my friends, whom I still love and respect and realize they're looking out for me. Until then, please respect my wishes regarding this LJ. Emails will be responded to AFTER the wedding.
Seriously. Please do NOT comment about the earthship plans, what I'm doing or how asinine you think I am for not listening. I am listening. I have read what was written. I agree this is a big project and it's going to take time and effort and money. Let me work on this my way. You'll have your chance to tear it all apart soon enough. I promise.
