Have I been too esoteric?
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bloodsong1Or maybe just too vague?
I don't know. I thought SOMEONE would respond to the hope post, but I guess everyone's busy.
It's okay. Busy is good. So is recovering. (^_^)
My counselor agrees I'm in much better mental straits then I was this time last year. I agree. I'm not freaking out over New Job! and Boyfriend! and Weddings! I don't have another wedding until October and I get to look forward to seeing Mowgli & Chezzi and Polar Bear and a few more people the following weekend.
For you Secret October people, this means I am NOT coming. It's partially a money issue, but mostly I want to see people I haven't seen in over two years without having to chase children or feel guilty. Yes, I realize I didn't NEED to feel guilty about being there last year, but I did and I helped out as much as I could to "earn" my and my kiddos' keep. If time allows and my navigation works properly I might pop over Sunday to say Hi and hang out for a while without eating anything. But don't count on it.
In the meantime, the Goblin King seems satisfied playing with Patrick in "Lottery" and isn't breathing down my cerebral cortex demanding Romantic Time with Sarah. And now that I've said that, he's going to start again. Ah well.
I'm looking forward to October, but it's not in a panicked, "I have to survive so I can lean on people who know me and understand me and can help me" sort of way. It's a "Yay! I get a weekend free of SLB & kiddos and get to hang out with a bunch of Kitchen Witches and go to a craft fair and make tea for everyone and they will also know me and understand me and help me if I need it."
This is a nice change.
I don't know. I thought SOMEONE would respond to the hope post, but I guess everyone's busy.
It's okay. Busy is good. So is recovering. (^_^)
My counselor agrees I'm in much better mental straits then I was this time last year. I agree. I'm not freaking out over New Job! and Boyfriend! and Weddings! I don't have another wedding until October and I get to look forward to seeing Mowgli & Chezzi and Polar Bear and a few more people the following weekend.
For you Secret October people, this means I am NOT coming. It's partially a money issue, but mostly I want to see people I haven't seen in over two years without having to chase children or feel guilty. Yes, I realize I didn't NEED to feel guilty about being there last year, but I did and I helped out as much as I could to "earn" my and my kiddos' keep. If time allows and my navigation works properly I might pop over Sunday to say Hi and hang out for a while without eating anything. But don't count on it.
In the meantime, the Goblin King seems satisfied playing with Patrick in "Lottery" and isn't breathing down my cerebral cortex demanding Romantic Time with Sarah. And now that I've said that, he's going to start again. Ah well.
I'm looking forward to October, but it's not in a panicked, "I have to survive so I can lean on people who know me and understand me and can help me" sort of way. It's a "Yay! I get a weekend free of SLB & kiddos and get to hang out with a bunch of Kitchen Witches and go to a craft fair and make tea for everyone and they will also know me and understand me and help me if I need it."
This is a nice change.
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Date: 2014-08-26 05:57 am (UTC)I just didn't think there was anything to add. Hope is a very fragile and quiet thing. People are more likely to tiptoe around it than shout for joy when it shows up. I'm glad you are feeling hopeful. But I thought it was very hopeful when you started getting excited about the Earthship.
Go You!
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Date: 2014-08-26 10:30 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2014-08-29 12:52 am (UTC)If there's any leftover glass bottles &/or aluminum cans, swipe what you can for me? I need building materials!