bloodsong1 | So, not quite as awkward?

I really have no idea what I'm doing. I've had a total of two breakups in my life and both times the men in question were furious with me. I also lost an entire social circle.

SLB is, for the most part, behaving normally. I am doing the same. There's a lot less touching. I took his hand earlier today, gave it a squeeze. He asked me why. I told him I still loved him, which is true. He asked me if I'd take him back, even if he was living out in the woods crazy. I said not if he was crazy. He clarified and then Life happened, so I didn't get to tell him it would be unlikely.

The Tarot reading I had last month is bearing fruit. I actually feel a little more stable. I'm not worrying about "what might happen?" because it happened and it's for the best. For me. Like it or not, I haven't taken enough time for me. I haven't done enough solo work in my Secret Garden. I need to relay my own foundation, without another foreman adding his own mix to the concrete.

I'll be all right. I hope SLB can do the same.