"He still cares about you."
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bloodsong1"I know."
"But you don't."
"I care about him as I would one of your friends. That's not enough."-- How I explained my feelings about Ex SLB to IDK (Indestructo-kiddo)
I've been ill since last night with the family stomach bug. I managed to work 6 hours today, which was impressive given how bad I felt. I came home early. Ex SLB called IDK and asked to come over. I said sure, as long as I was left alone and not asked for a ride. I fell asleep while he was here and woke up just before he came upstairs to check on me. I'm good at faking sleep. He kissed my temple, stroked my shoulder and told me to feel better. The kiss tingled a little, but wasn't melancholy.
*sigh*
It's not his fault he's not what I need. It's not his fault I broke it off. He wants to be a gaming 20something who works just enough to get by, even in his thirties. That's fine. More power to him. I need more. I've been thinking about that. What I'd like is a man, five years either side of my age or less, working a living wage job, has his own car, is monogamous, is emotionally and mentally stable, doesn't have children, willing to accept mine and all our emotional and mental issues, and is pagan friendly.
Honestly, LJ-Land, where on EARTH am I going to find that?
...
The Crescent Moon Fairy hanging from my mirror just rattled like crazy. I had to kiss it to calm it down. Now what does THAT mean?
"But you don't."
"I care about him as I would one of your friends. That's not enough."-- How I explained my feelings about Ex SLB to IDK (Indestructo-kiddo)
I've been ill since last night with the family stomach bug. I managed to work 6 hours today, which was impressive given how bad I felt. I came home early. Ex SLB called IDK and asked to come over. I said sure, as long as I was left alone and not asked for a ride. I fell asleep while he was here and woke up just before he came upstairs to check on me. I'm good at faking sleep. He kissed my temple, stroked my shoulder and told me to feel better. The kiss tingled a little, but wasn't melancholy.
*sigh*
It's not his fault he's not what I need. It's not his fault I broke it off. He wants to be a gaming 20something who works just enough to get by, even in his thirties. That's fine. More power to him. I need more. I've been thinking about that. What I'd like is a man, five years either side of my age or less, working a living wage job, has his own car, is monogamous, is emotionally and mentally stable, doesn't have children, willing to accept mine and all our emotional and mental issues, and is pagan friendly.
Honestly, LJ-Land, where on EARTH am I going to find that?
...
The Crescent Moon Fairy hanging from my mirror just rattled like crazy. I had to kiss it to calm it down. Now what does THAT mean?
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