I'm not that strong.

[bloodsong1]

Not this month. Not with meltdowns over lost physical forms for school and dangerous ideas that were not and WILL NOT BE ACTED ON!!!!!

I'm going back on the Zoloft starting today. I'm disappointed in myself, but I know this path and I don't want to walk it again. I can see that damned hole. I am NOT falling into it.

I'm sorry, everyone. I want to be happy and I can't like this. Up past midnight on a work night because I'm afraid to go to bed. Crying for no good reason.

It will be better after the dawn.

Comments

[mowglikat]

I'm not sure why you would consider it a failure. This is chemistry. This isn't "all in your head," it's physical, like a broken arm.

There is no failure in getting the help you need.

[bloodsong1.livejournal.com]

I keep hoping I'll be stable without it for life insurance reasons. Obviously I need to find a different life insurance policy.